Far away far away, I want to go far away.
To a new life on a new shore line.
Where the water is blue and the people are new.
To another island, in another life.
~Ingrid Michaelson, Far Away.
I love this song =) It will be spring officially in 2 weeks! I need Spring break…
In other news, I feel better about life. I’ve been stressing out about my future hardcore lately. The good news is, I have friends who will listen and then promptly call me out on it. The future is not my business- I’m only responsible for the day. I’m beginning to see the beauty of not always planning… not that I’m going to ditch what I need to plan for, but it’s not going to be the same. I don’t want to know the details, I want to be surprised and delighted. haha I can be uptight and I don’t want to live like that, trapped in confines of my complex designs (maybe some poetry out of this?).
What I have decided, is that I am trying to live too fast. Although I am a firm believer in carpe diem, I don’t want to burn myself out. I’m in it for the long haul (*wink to those of you who get this terrible joke. I’m lame sometimes…). So I wait until next week and see if I get the CA job- that will determine a lot, and that isn’t even until next week, so I have time to just relax! That is when I will start figuring out classes- if I become a CA, that in itself is a great reason to not take too many classes, and, economically, I’ll feel better about staying an extra semester if that’s what it takes.
Next issue- classes. Summer courses, scheduling, working, living, blah blahblah… enough of that frenzied cycle. God knows exactly where I will be this summer. What an awesome being He is, completely surprising me like this =) I really feel led to get my ESL endorsement because I have enjoyed tutoring internationals, and it makes space for God and missions opportunities. No idea about missions, but supernaturally, I have peace about that. God always gets me where I need to be in order to help Him the most. That’s the same attitude I have for this summer. Wherever I am, I am sure that He will provide me with opportunities to give freely what He has given me.
Now that all that is resolved, I need to focus on my schoolwork, and just be engaged wherever I am. Speaking of which, I have one more mid-term at 2:10, so I need to be responsible and study.
Peace and joy!